So, that coffee that my hubs brought home from the gas station which turns out is 5.5 points for the whole thing, so I only drank about half, then dumped the rest before I was tempted to drink it all. Lunch was two slices of left over thin crust pizza. For dinner I made pork tenderloin with an apple cider glaze(reduced chicken stock and a packet of sugarfree apple cider mix, came out sooo good) carrots, mushrooms sauted with balsamic vinegar and chicken stock and oven baked potatoes. It came out very yummy. I think I even ate a little too much, but hey I'm learning more and more what my body actually wants, and it's not the junk that I was eating before. My stomach may hurt, but it's not like a fastfood binge hurt. Tomorrow, I will work on my portion control.

282

Squueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Yesterday I was only up half a pound yesterday morning after Friday night's dinner. Wooohooo!

Yesterday was a berry/pineapple smoothie for breakfsat, a few doritos to munch on after I came home from grocery shopping, then thin crust pizza (chicken, tomato, spinach) and chicken tenders from PapaJohns for dinner. Oh and some fatfree, sugarfree pudding for dessert. All point counted, used a few flex points, but that's ok cause it's working.

This morning I tried to make pumpkin pancakes for breakfast--big fail whale. Ended up making regular pancakes and some pumkin butter on top. The hubs picked me up a pumpkin spice coffee from the gas station...5.5 points. Yikes, track it, it's all good.

282.5

So, I was down another pound this morning. That makes 5 since Monday. I expect that that number may go up tomorrow morning considering what I ate for dinner tonight, but that’s to be expected. This is going to be a long process. I can’t expect to loose weight every day or even every week. That being said, I was happy with the choices I made all day, up until dinner.

Breakfast was a pineapple/strawberry smoothie, very yummy. Lunch was left over beef stew from last night’s dinner, but less meat and more veg and broth, yummy nevertheless; in fact I think it’s the best batch I’ve ever made. I had a snack of almonds (25) before lunch. When I got home the hubs wanted cheeburgercheeburger. I said ok because he’s working all weekend and I hate to say no to him. After agonizing over the menu I decided to go with a bunless burger, side salad and onion rings. I checked out the nutritional information and tried to do my best to over estimate everything. That turned out to be 30 points for dinner. (11.5 extra points for the day.) But I didn’t eat the dressing for the salad or the croutons or cheese. I was still within my points for the week, which reset tomorrow on my offical ww weigh in day. (I am thinking that I may change my weigh in day to friday or wednesday.)

I did get in all my water in today, so bravo me. Tomorrow is a brand new day and I will be successful. Lots to do tomorrow, so lots of activity walking in stores and cleaning, packing, etc.

283.5

Was down two more pounds this morning, but I hardly feel like celebrating.

I think I'm just going to go to bed.

Schmoey

17 years ago this month a very special soul came into my life. He was small and furry and 4 legs and big ears. For many years he lived at my dad's home in Chemlsford. When my dad moved at the end of my senior year of high school; Schmoey came to live with my mom, stepdad, sister and me at my mom's house in Pepperell. Schmoey has seen me through a great deal in my life: middle and high school, first jobs, first loves, my marriage and my many moves. In 2003 Schmoey came to live with me and my husband in Rhode Island and he lived with us for 3 months until we had to vacate our apartment with the board of health shut it down, so back to mom's he went (since we were homeless at the time). And there he was to stay. I would visit whenever I could, but somehow it never seemed enough anymore. Then in 2005 we moved to Virginia, 500 miles away from my precious kitty. Whenever I come home one of the very first things I do is call for Schmoey, pick him up and give him a big hug and kiss. Always feeling guilty whenever I would have to leave him. But I knew he was well loved and well cared for, and in a better place than what I could provide.

Lately, he has been talking to me every morning when I call and talk to my mom on my way to work. I talk to him over the phone, hear him purr and meow. He loves to meow/talk.

11 days ago my mom let Schmoey outside to play as he usually does and 30 minutes later he was no where to be found. I was absolutely devastated. My best little friend was missing and there was nothing I could do. For 5 days my parents spent many hours of the day and night searching for him, but he was no where to be found. Two hours ago my mom called me to tell me that someone had found him and brought him to the vet, but that he was very sick. She text me a picture of him shortly after arriving at the vet's office and told me just how sick he was. Schmoey had suffered a stroke, was blind and had a bad arrhythmia. He was not going to live another 2 hours. She let me talk to him. I told him how much I loved him, so , so , so much. He was the best friend, best cat, best everything he could be. I love him so much. My step dad kissed him for me. Then my mom and stepdad both held him when the vet gave him the shot to go to sleep. He's gone. My best little friend is truly gone. He's home now, for which I am immensely grateful, but he's gone nevertheless. I feel like my heart is breaking all over again. I almost feel a sense of peace that he's home now, but I still can't help but feel a great sadness that my friend is gone.

Cute, cuddly, and lovey. You loved life and everyone you met. You are a genuinely beautiful soul, knowing you has changed my life forever. I love you my sweet, precious kitty. You are the absolute greatest. No one will ever replace you in my heart, ever. I promise you I will be home soon.

285.5

Ok, can I just say how excited I was to step on the scale this morning and see that number!?! 2 pounds down, 160+ to go.

Very pleased with myself for staying on track all day. Breakfast was a pineapple/strawberry smoothie-yum- lunch was a turkey/ham sandwich on white (yum) bread with mustard and a lettuce leaf plus a ff yogurt. For dinner I made pesto and fresh tomato pizzas with low fat mozzarella. After all that I still had 14.5 points left for the day so I had some white toast with 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and 30 chocolate chips. As of right now, I still have 6 points left, but I'm not that hungry. I know I should eat all my points (33), but should I really force myself? I also got a bit of activity in today, working out back in the warehouse in the intense humidty. Not only did I feel gross and sweaty, but my hair was so curly and frizzy, a very attractive imagine indeed.

Had a great convo with my bff tonight and I booked the hubs plane ticket for thanksgiving. Good day.

287.5

That's my current weight.

I'm working hard to get back on track after a terrible (eating) summer. Also, get back to blogging, back to getting on track. Set reasonable, healthy goals. I can do this. Expect that it will take at least 3 years to get somewhere close to an ultimate goal. Be consistant.

New mantra:

There may be a 3 in front of my age and a 3 in front of my clothing size, but I will never see a 3 in front of my weight.