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offical weight watchers weigh in this morning: 277.

This means -3.5 this week

total -11 pounds!

Go me! back on track.

disgusted

with myself.

just calculated my points for the day...73.5

Baaaaaaad day.

I'm back

Last week was difficult for me, so I took some time for me. I gained on my official ww wi and made 3 bad choices. But i'm picking myself up and dusting myself off and getting back on track. 277.5 this morning. Some good decisions and not so good decisions today, but I'm doing better. I need to get over this first 10 pound hump.

1 week until I go home for vacation/thanksgiving!

B:smoothie

AS: almonds

L: butternut squash soup, yogurt

AF: almonds, apple

D: turkey chili w/sour cream and lf cheese, wasa with laughing cow.

total points 34 (1 flex used today)

277.5

Well I had to step on the scale 5 times this morning before I could get an accurate (not jumping) number. Another crappy day, although better than the previous two. My knee is still bothering me from over-doing it the other day. My pants feel like they're getting tighter: w.t.f! Still trying to work on the damn resume, now the computer is not behaving. So frustrating.

Breakfast: 2 pumpkin muffins

Lunch: left over spaghetti and yogurt

snack: half a piece of birthday cake, scrapped off the frosting

dinner: slow cooked country pork with homemade coleslaw and a ff tortilla.

Not doing so great on getting in my fruits and veggies. I think I need to go back to a smoothie tomorrow.

278.5

Ok, so I was fairly happy that I was down a pound this morning. I am still so disappointed in myself for my Sunday binge. I know that I need to stop beating myself up, I'm just mad. I've had two miserable days back to back now and I just want to feel like I was last week, enthusiastic and happy, but I'm just in a bad mood.

I got up this morning and did another day of Jillian Michael's dvd. And I hurt myself. Yes, lots and lots pain in my thigh and knee. So not happy. I was in terrible traffic this morning and it took me an hour and a half to go 14 freakin miles. I hate northern virginia for many reasons, traffic being at the top of my list.

Breakfast was a couple of pumpkin muffins, left over dinner for lunch with a yogurt. For dinner I made chicken enchiladas last night, which was good because after my day today I would have totally given into my bad day and ordered some really bad food. But I told myself that food doesn't solve any problems, unless the problem is hunger. I had some wasa crackers with laughing cow cheese and a piece of string cheese while I was waiting for dinner to cook. And a ww ice cream for dessert. I did however get the bills paid tonight which I was pretty happy that it was all done around 8:00. Still have to work on my resume, why is it so hard to write these damn things? Leaning towards putting the computer away and picking up my crocheting. Need to do something relaxing.

279.5

Welcome to my crap storm of a day. Yeah, that was an awesome way to start my day. I was so annoyed and mad at myself for yesterday's binging that I decided I had to punish myself with a 20 minute Jillian Michael's dvd. Ouch. My thighs are burning now.

So let's see, I started off leaving for work on time, forgot that I needed to get gas, drove to gas station and their credit card reader was broken, so back in the car, drive to a different gas station 10 miles away and I was so frazzled that I pulled up to the wrong side of my car swiped my card and then realized that the damn gas tank is on the other side. So drive to a different pump (after canceling the transaction) and finally get my gas. Then I got to sick in a ton of fucking traffic on my way to work. Have I mentioned how much I HATE northern virginia traffic??!?!?!? No?, well it's sucks more than you can imagine. So, then I get to work a half hour later and got there as my boss (step-mother) was pulling up. Fucking awesome. Then on to a two hour monday meeting during which I was shaking I was so freaking cold, then back to my desk for a fun-filled day of work. Absolutely awesome. Then lots more traffic on my way home, which by then way thanks sooo freaking much to dst it's not pitch freaking dark when I work on my way home. Yah, awesome. So I don't get home until after 6:00, then I get the joy and pleasure of making dinner for us. Can I tell you how amazed I am that I actually did it and didn't just say fuck it and order a pizza or something. I have even made tomorrow's dinner to through in the oven when I get home tomorrow.

And what do I get in the email? I little surprise from my favorite band, NKOTB. They are revamping their site and now I should pay $80 per year to be a fan? FUCK THAT! I AM WAAAAAAAAY NOT HAPPY. I'm not thrilled with their whole new tour with BSB, and now I'm just pissed. Thank you @nkotb for the cherry on top of my crap storm of a day. Fucking awesome.

Foodwise: breakfast was a 2point pumpkin muffin that I made yesterday morning and another at 11:45 for a mid-morning snack. Lunch was a ff tortilla with a wedge of laughing cow chipotole cheese and some lunch meat (turkey/ham) and a yogurt. An apple for a afternoon snack (which was stupid cause apples always make me hungrier) For dinner I made a tomato sauce with onions. garlic and chopped up chicken thighs I cooked last night with some whole grain pasta. (I bought some on Saturday, and it's better than the whole wheat pasta. Not as good as regular pasta, but much better than the whole wheat.) So I did ok with my food today, but I'm just in a bad mood. I really need to put the computer away and crochet or watch some sg1 or something.

Well I started the day off so well...

By 2pm I had 1 point left for the day.

Veggies and chicken for dinner.

Bad me. :(

278.5 ---> 277.0

Ok, so yesterday I was 278.5 and this morning 277.0.

Yesterday morning I started off the day with some pumpkin oatmeal and a cup of coffee with splenda and ff creamer-vanilla caramel. Pretty tasty. I did munch on some of those cookies that I made Friday night- the recipe made about 22 cookies and I think as of this morning there are 10ish left-yeah, they're good.

After I came home from grocery shopping (which I was pretty pleased that I did not buy anything I was tempted by, with the exception of chocolate chips, 30 cc on top of pb toast is pretty tasty and not too many points, and yes I count out 30 of them) I made some greek salad with lentils. This was the first time I've ever tried lentils and they were pretty tasty ( I think that might be my word of the day since I've used it a dozen times today) . I took a cup of dried lentils with enough water to cover them plus 2 inches and 2 bay leaves. (bring up to boil then turn to simmer and partially cover-totally adapted this from someone's recipe I saw on the ww site- I cooked them for about 20 minutes then drained them and rinsed in cold water to cool them off a little so they were just warm. I chopped up an english cucumber, a bunch of small tomatoes, 2 heads of romaine lettuce and some left over feta cheese I had, probably about 4 ounces, threw in the lentils and mixed everything together with some homemade dressing (balsamic vinegar, evoo and dried spices). It was very yummy, I even threw some black olives on hubby's portion (I am not a fan) and he said it was good. So hooray for lentils!

For dinner we ordered Domino's, like the other day, but this time I didn't beat myself up about what I ate (a whole large salad and some buffalo chicken pizza- seriously I think it's my favorite, chicken, onions, buffalo sauce and cheese, simple and great). I was not expecting to loose this morning, but I was super excited that I did. I did not get in all my water yesterday which I was disappointed in myself for, but today is a brand new day and I will do better today.

Today is a cleaning day, laundry, vacuuming, clean sheets and more packing/purging. I will be ready for this move in February!

279.0

Why hello 270's! How lovely to see you again! See ya later 280's it has not been fun. I will never, ever see you again!

Today is a big day! I made it to the 270's, which means that my BMI is now under 55! Woohooo! And it has been 10 days since I've been OP and tracked everything I've eaten and 10 days since I had a sip of soda! BIG DEAL! I am feeling victorious!

Started the morning off with a fruit (peaches, pineapple, strawberry, blueberries and mixed berries) smoothie which was very yummy. 25 almonds for a mid morning snack and a turkey/ham sandwhich with a yogurt for lunch. For dinner I made tacos, one of my most favorite dinners on the planet. They were wicked yummy! Then I made some cherry-coconut macaroons for dessert. 1 point for 2 cookies. Very tasty and very sweet, almost even too sweet, but that's good cause I only ate 3 and was satisfied. I had to put the rest away before I just munched until they were all gone. Pedometer reading today: 3554. Slightly better than yesterday, but still pretty pitiful.

I am very glad that it is Friday and the next two days are all mine. I have a ton of stuff I want to do and my list starts with relaxing and crocheting. Then onto resume and packing, fun stuff first.

280.5

Ok, so it seriously took all the courage I had this morning to step on the scale. After last night's pizza binge it literally took me almost a two full minutes of standing in front of the scale, psyching myself up to step on it. But in the end, I am doing this for me and I have to be accountable to myself, even on my bad days. I was pleasantly surprised that I was only up a half a pound, I was expecting it to be much worse. There is something to be said for eating in moderation for sure.

Today was a brand new day, so I started off by (running almost a half hour late this morning-I hate when that happens!) making a pumpkin smoothie. I used 1/2 cup of pumpkin, 1/2 cup of vanilla yogurt, 1/2 cup of skim milk and a sprinkling of pumpkin pie spice and spelnda. It was so thick, it was like trying to suck up whipped cream through a straw. The good thing about it was that it was only 2 points for the whole thing and it took me until 11:30 to finish it; no need for a mid morning snack. By the time I got to the bottom of it I had to add some water to the mix to make it more palatable. I don't think I'll be making another one tomorrow, I'm a bit pumpkin-ed out right now. I had a turkey and ham sandwich for lunch with a yogurt which I was surprised how well it filled me up. This afternoon was wicked busy at work and around 4:00 I had 25 almonds for an afternoon snack. By the time I got home I was chilled and really didn't feel like making dinner, but I did. I sliced up the remainder of the pork tenderloin from Sunday and made 2 quesadillas for us and we both snacked on some left over pizza while I was cooking. So far I have 1.5 points left for the day and I'm pretty happy about that. I was thinking about making some dessert, but I worked on my resume instead (fun).

Also, I wore my pediometer for the first time in months today, 3197 steps today. Pretty dismal. I have got to work on getting more activity in.

280

Another one bites the dust.

Ok, so as much as I am looking forward to never seeing the 280's again, I will probably be there for at least one more day tomorrow, considering what I just ate for dinner. Yikes.

This morning was a berries smoothie, better than yesterday's, but I think tomorrow I am going to try making a pumpkin smoothie. My 25 almond mid morning snack followed by lunch of leftover black bean soup from last night and a yogurt, which was way too much food and I was over-full. No afternoon snack for me. I've been tired all day and by the time dinner thoughts started happening, it wasn't good. This is what happens when you don't plan: 4 slices of buffalo chicken pizza and a large garden salad from Domino's. O.M.G. Pig out much?! I am totally disgusted with myself (11 flex points used) and the worst part is, I couldn't stop myself from eating it, I had to go brush my teeth so that I wouldn't have the taste of pizza in my mouth and keep going back for more. If I had eaten only 2 slices of pizza, that would have been reasonable, not to mention within my daily points. Hating myself so much right now.

281

Another half pound this morning! They all add up.

Feeling a bit tired and not 100% motivated today, but I've stayed on program, ate all my points without going over, so I'm pretty happy about that.

For breakfast I made a blueberry smoothie, and I mean all blueberry. A cup of frozen blueberries, blueberry yogurt and some orange juice. It was a bit over the top. I think tomorrow I will make a blend of blueberry plus something. Midmorning snack was 1oz of regular almonds, which I think is quickly becoming my favorite snack. For lunch I had a small portion of last night's leftover shrimp and pasta and a yogurt (thankfully not blueberry). The orange I put in my bag for a afternoon snack was brown and nasty inside, so I had a rice krispie treat instead, and it was not as satisfying as that orange would have been.

For dinner the hubby has a friend spending the night tonight so there were 3 of us for dinner and J's tummy is not yet 100% from the sickness he had over the weekend and yesterday. SO I made 2 chicken breasts, a pound of whole wheat penne (again, I really don't love whole wheat pasta), 2 heads of broccoli, and about 2 cups of mushrooms. Instead of oil I used ff chicken stock to coat the pasta and saute the veg. Plus I made some soup, black bean and tomato. The soup was very yummy, I will be taking the rest to work with me for lunch tomorrow and the boys have the left over pasta for work. I really like it when it works out that we have enough left overs to have them the next day for lunch. After all that I still had 10 points left over for the day so I indulged in some regular, full fat ice cream and a few almonds=yum!

I like Tuesdays after work cause it's one of the only times I get to talk to my sister. But I am looking forward to the weekend already. I am exceptionally tired today for some reason.

281.5

Today I was feeling a bit down. I think that the fact that I lost 6 pounds over the last week just hit me this morning and I started to feel guilty for not doing it sooner and skeptical thinking "well, did I really loose 6 pounds, that's not normal, there must be something wrong with me....." yeah, it just got worse from there. I hate when my brain starts playing tricks on me. Really need to snap myself back to reality.

This morning started off greaaaat when I woke up at 4:45 to hear my husband vomiting uncontrollably, nice. So he stayed home from work today.

I made a berry/pineapple smoothie for breakfast. 25 almonds for a mid morning snack. A ham and turkey sandwich and yogurt for lunch. An orange for an afternoon snack. When I got home the hubby was still sick, so I was making dinner for myself. So I indulged the opportunity and made shrimp (there was a bag of frozen shrimpys in the freezer, and I need to clean out everything before we move in feb, so this was sort of a dual-purpose treat) with whole wheat linguine with pesto. It was pretty good, but I've long said that I am not a fan of whole wheat pasta. I'm sorry, I wish I did, I just don't like the taste of it. (I don't really like whole wheat bread either, oatmeal bread is way yummier) But, I'm trying to get more whole grains in, so I'll grin and bear it, but I would rather spend an extra point and eat (regular) white flour/semolina pasta. Maybe it would be different if I tried to make some homemade, I don't know. Dessert, is sugarfree, fatfree pudding-yum. Still have 2 points left for the day...

So after seeing a bunch of blogs who posted monthly goals, I'm totally inspiried to make my own list.

November goals

1. Get down to 275 or lower. (6.5 pounds)

2. Get more active. (dust off the damn bike and finally do something!)

3. Try to eat more vegetables. (meet the good health guidelines 5-7/day)

4. Pack and purge, get ready to move in Feb.

5. Don't over indulge on Thanksgiving and trip home to Massachusetts.