shoot me

i can't stop the coughing fits...want to cry....want to be able to have a normal night's sleep. :(

had a 32 (ahhh) point breakfast: 2 homemade waffles and 2 tabs syrup. (yeah, bad choice.) lunch was about 5 cups of veggies with ff sourcream/ranch dip and i made turkey enchildas for dinner. (yum, left overs for tomorrows lunch)

getting back on track...if only i could breathe now.

271

ok, I’ll admit it, I’m shocked. I actually managed to loose a pound from last week.

New total is 17 pounds, 5.9% gone.

Next week I will be better.

sick...booo

So I've been mia, but this week has not been easy. I started coming down with this cold last monday (as in november, last monday) and now I've gone from a head cold to a sinus infection and bacterial bronchitis, a secondary infection from the sinus infection. Fracking awesome. Tuesday night my car broke down on the way home....$330 later, Lilly Lincoln is all fixed.

My diet has taken a leap off the deep end this week. When I don't feel good, I don't like to cook and that means we eat out, when we eat out we eat fast food, so, yeah, not good. I have tracked everything, and been accountable to myself, but I think I will likely maintain at tomorrow's weigh in, or have a small gain less than 1lb.

Plan for this weekend: get Christmas decorations up and work on completing some gifts. And sleep to get better.

wi

Offical weigh in: 3 pounds gone forever this week!

This means I hit my 5%!

Total: 16 pounds!

Sooooooooooo freaking excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goals

So I've been a miserable beatch the past couple of days because I have a nasty head cold and I can't breathe. All and all our trip to Massachusetts was a success.

I just took my measurements for the month of December and I lost 5 inches in November=yey! So I'm going to reevaluate my November goals and set some for December.

November goals

1. Get down to 275 or lower. (6.5 pounds) Done! Last offical weigh in of November was exactly 275.0 and this morning was 272.5.

2. Get more active. (dust off the damn bike and finally do something!) Total Failsauce. I did 2 days of a Jillian Michael's dvd and hurt myself so I couldn't do anything for three weeks. (I did steal some of mom's yoga and tai chi videos when I was home.)

3. Try to eat more vegetables. (meet the good health guidelines 5-7/day) Ok, so this I did do better, but I was far from perfect, so an improvement, but still room to grow.

4. Pack and purge, get ready to move in Feb. Done-ish. I packed and brought at least a dozen boxes home with me last weekend.

5. Don’t over indulge on Thanksgiving and trip home to Massachusetts. Success! I did very good at controling myself over the holiday and even lost 2 pounds over the whole week.

Ok, so I'm pretty happy about how November went. On to December.

December Goals:

1. Get down to 270 or below. (That's officially 5 pounds in the month with numerous Christmas parties. I believe this is very doable.)

2. Get back to regular blogging.

3. Complete all Christmas gifts. (If it's not made from yarn, I'm not giving it as a gift this year. I have 4 large totes full of yarn and they need to be dwindled down before we move.)

4. Get off my butt and do some freaking exercise.

5. Control my eating while at Christmas parties and on Christmas Day.

6. Find a job in Massachusetts for when we move in Feb/March.

wi

offical weight watchers weigh in this morning: 277.

This means -3.5 this week

total -11 pounds!

Go me! back on track.

disgusted

with myself.

just calculated my points for the day...73.5

Baaaaaaad day.

I'm back

Last week was difficult for me, so I took some time for me. I gained on my official ww wi and made 3 bad choices. But i'm picking myself up and dusting myself off and getting back on track. 277.5 this morning. Some good decisions and not so good decisions today, but I'm doing better. I need to get over this first 10 pound hump.

1 week until I go home for vacation/thanksgiving!

B:smoothie

AS: almonds

L: butternut squash soup, yogurt

AF: almonds, apple

D: turkey chili w/sour cream and lf cheese, wasa with laughing cow.

total points 34 (1 flex used today)

277.5

Well I had to step on the scale 5 times this morning before I could get an accurate (not jumping) number. Another crappy day, although better than the previous two. My knee is still bothering me from over-doing it the other day. My pants feel like they're getting tighter: w.t.f! Still trying to work on the damn resume, now the computer is not behaving. So frustrating.

Breakfast: 2 pumpkin muffins

Lunch: left over spaghetti and yogurt

snack: half a piece of birthday cake, scrapped off the frosting

dinner: slow cooked country pork with homemade coleslaw and a ff tortilla.

Not doing so great on getting in my fruits and veggies. I think I need to go back to a smoothie tomorrow.

278.5

Ok, so I was fairly happy that I was down a pound this morning. I am still so disappointed in myself for my Sunday binge. I know that I need to stop beating myself up, I'm just mad. I've had two miserable days back to back now and I just want to feel like I was last week, enthusiastic and happy, but I'm just in a bad mood.

I got up this morning and did another day of Jillian Michael's dvd. And I hurt myself. Yes, lots and lots pain in my thigh and knee. So not happy. I was in terrible traffic this morning and it took me an hour and a half to go 14 freakin miles. I hate northern virginia for many reasons, traffic being at the top of my list.

Breakfast was a couple of pumpkin muffins, left over dinner for lunch with a yogurt. For dinner I made chicken enchiladas last night, which was good because after my day today I would have totally given into my bad day and ordered some really bad food. But I told myself that food doesn't solve any problems, unless the problem is hunger. I had some wasa crackers with laughing cow cheese and a piece of string cheese while I was waiting for dinner to cook. And a ww ice cream for dessert. I did however get the bills paid tonight which I was pretty happy that it was all done around 8:00. Still have to work on my resume, why is it so hard to write these damn things? Leaning towards putting the computer away and picking up my crocheting. Need to do something relaxing.

279.5

Welcome to my crap storm of a day. Yeah, that was an awesome way to start my day. I was so annoyed and mad at myself for yesterday's binging that I decided I had to punish myself with a 20 minute Jillian Michael's dvd. Ouch. My thighs are burning now.

So let's see, I started off leaving for work on time, forgot that I needed to get gas, drove to gas station and their credit card reader was broken, so back in the car, drive to a different gas station 10 miles away and I was so frazzled that I pulled up to the wrong side of my car swiped my card and then realized that the damn gas tank is on the other side. So drive to a different pump (after canceling the transaction) and finally get my gas. Then I got to sick in a ton of fucking traffic on my way to work. Have I mentioned how much I HATE northern virginia traffic??!?!?!? No?, well it's sucks more than you can imagine. So, then I get to work a half hour later and got there as my boss (step-mother) was pulling up. Fucking awesome. Then on to a two hour monday meeting during which I was shaking I was so freaking cold, then back to my desk for a fun-filled day of work. Absolutely awesome. Then lots more traffic on my way home, which by then way thanks sooo freaking much to dst it's not pitch freaking dark when I work on my way home. Yah, awesome. So I don't get home until after 6:00, then I get the joy and pleasure of making dinner for us. Can I tell you how amazed I am that I actually did it and didn't just say fuck it and order a pizza or something. I have even made tomorrow's dinner to through in the oven when I get home tomorrow.

And what do I get in the email? I little surprise from my favorite band, NKOTB. They are revamping their site and now I should pay $80 per year to be a fan? FUCK THAT! I AM WAAAAAAAAY NOT HAPPY. I'm not thrilled with their whole new tour with BSB, and now I'm just pissed. Thank you @nkotb for the cherry on top of my crap storm of a day. Fucking awesome.

Foodwise: breakfast was a 2point pumpkin muffin that I made yesterday morning and another at 11:45 for a mid-morning snack. Lunch was a ff tortilla with a wedge of laughing cow chipotole cheese and some lunch meat (turkey/ham) and a yogurt. An apple for a afternoon snack (which was stupid cause apples always make me hungrier) For dinner I made a tomato sauce with onions. garlic and chopped up chicken thighs I cooked last night with some whole grain pasta. (I bought some on Saturday, and it's better than the whole wheat pasta. Not as good as regular pasta, but much better than the whole wheat.) So I did ok with my food today, but I'm just in a bad mood. I really need to put the computer away and crochet or watch some sg1 or something.

Well I started the day off so well...

By 2pm I had 1 point left for the day.

Veggies and chicken for dinner.

Bad me. :(

278.5 ---> 277.0

Ok, so yesterday I was 278.5 and this morning 277.0.

Yesterday morning I started off the day with some pumpkin oatmeal and a cup of coffee with splenda and ff creamer-vanilla caramel. Pretty tasty. I did munch on some of those cookies that I made Friday night- the recipe made about 22 cookies and I think as of this morning there are 10ish left-yeah, they're good.

After I came home from grocery shopping (which I was pretty pleased that I did not buy anything I was tempted by, with the exception of chocolate chips, 30 cc on top of pb toast is pretty tasty and not too many points, and yes I count out 30 of them) I made some greek salad with lentils. This was the first time I've ever tried lentils and they were pretty tasty ( I think that might be my word of the day since I've used it a dozen times today) . I took a cup of dried lentils with enough water to cover them plus 2 inches and 2 bay leaves. (bring up to boil then turn to simmer and partially cover-totally adapted this from someone's recipe I saw on the ww site- I cooked them for about 20 minutes then drained them and rinsed in cold water to cool them off a little so they were just warm. I chopped up an english cucumber, a bunch of small tomatoes, 2 heads of romaine lettuce and some left over feta cheese I had, probably about 4 ounces, threw in the lentils and mixed everything together with some homemade dressing (balsamic vinegar, evoo and dried spices). It was very yummy, I even threw some black olives on hubby's portion (I am not a fan) and he said it was good. So hooray for lentils!

For dinner we ordered Domino's, like the other day, but this time I didn't beat myself up about what I ate (a whole large salad and some buffalo chicken pizza- seriously I think it's my favorite, chicken, onions, buffalo sauce and cheese, simple and great). I was not expecting to loose this morning, but I was super excited that I did. I did not get in all my water yesterday which I was disappointed in myself for, but today is a brand new day and I will do better today.

Today is a cleaning day, laundry, vacuuming, clean sheets and more packing/purging. I will be ready for this move in February!

279.0

Why hello 270's! How lovely to see you again! See ya later 280's it has not been fun. I will never, ever see you again!

Today is a big day! I made it to the 270's, which means that my BMI is now under 55! Woohooo! And it has been 10 days since I've been OP and tracked everything I've eaten and 10 days since I had a sip of soda! BIG DEAL! I am feeling victorious!

Started the morning off with a fruit (peaches, pineapple, strawberry, blueberries and mixed berries) smoothie which was very yummy. 25 almonds for a mid morning snack and a turkey/ham sandwhich with a yogurt for lunch. For dinner I made tacos, one of my most favorite dinners on the planet. They were wicked yummy! Then I made some cherry-coconut macaroons for dessert. 1 point for 2 cookies. Very tasty and very sweet, almost even too sweet, but that's good cause I only ate 3 and was satisfied. I had to put the rest away before I just munched until they were all gone. Pedometer reading today: 3554. Slightly better than yesterday, but still pretty pitiful.

I am very glad that it is Friday and the next two days are all mine. I have a ton of stuff I want to do and my list starts with relaxing and crocheting. Then onto resume and packing, fun stuff first.

280.5

Ok, so it seriously took all the courage I had this morning to step on the scale. After last night's pizza binge it literally took me almost a two full minutes of standing in front of the scale, psyching myself up to step on it. But in the end, I am doing this for me and I have to be accountable to myself, even on my bad days. I was pleasantly surprised that I was only up a half a pound, I was expecting it to be much worse. There is something to be said for eating in moderation for sure.

Today was a brand new day, so I started off by (running almost a half hour late this morning-I hate when that happens!) making a pumpkin smoothie. I used 1/2 cup of pumpkin, 1/2 cup of vanilla yogurt, 1/2 cup of skim milk and a sprinkling of pumpkin pie spice and spelnda. It was so thick, it was like trying to suck up whipped cream through a straw. The good thing about it was that it was only 2 points for the whole thing and it took me until 11:30 to finish it; no need for a mid morning snack. By the time I got to the bottom of it I had to add some water to the mix to make it more palatable. I don't think I'll be making another one tomorrow, I'm a bit pumpkin-ed out right now. I had a turkey and ham sandwich for lunch with a yogurt which I was surprised how well it filled me up. This afternoon was wicked busy at work and around 4:00 I had 25 almonds for an afternoon snack. By the time I got home I was chilled and really didn't feel like making dinner, but I did. I sliced up the remainder of the pork tenderloin from Sunday and made 2 quesadillas for us and we both snacked on some left over pizza while I was cooking. So far I have 1.5 points left for the day and I'm pretty happy about that. I was thinking about making some dessert, but I worked on my resume instead (fun).

Also, I wore my pediometer for the first time in months today, 3197 steps today. Pretty dismal. I have got to work on getting more activity in.

280

Another one bites the dust.

Ok, so as much as I am looking forward to never seeing the 280's again, I will probably be there for at least one more day tomorrow, considering what I just ate for dinner. Yikes.

This morning was a berries smoothie, better than yesterday's, but I think tomorrow I am going to try making a pumpkin smoothie. My 25 almond mid morning snack followed by lunch of leftover black bean soup from last night and a yogurt, which was way too much food and I was over-full. No afternoon snack for me. I've been tired all day and by the time dinner thoughts started happening, it wasn't good. This is what happens when you don't plan: 4 slices of buffalo chicken pizza and a large garden salad from Domino's. O.M.G. Pig out much?! I am totally disgusted with myself (11 flex points used) and the worst part is, I couldn't stop myself from eating it, I had to go brush my teeth so that I wouldn't have the taste of pizza in my mouth and keep going back for more. If I had eaten only 2 slices of pizza, that would have been reasonable, not to mention within my daily points. Hating myself so much right now.

281

Another half pound this morning! They all add up.

Feeling a bit tired and not 100% motivated today, but I've stayed on program, ate all my points without going over, so I'm pretty happy about that.

For breakfast I made a blueberry smoothie, and I mean all blueberry. A cup of frozen blueberries, blueberry yogurt and some orange juice. It was a bit over the top. I think tomorrow I will make a blend of blueberry plus something. Midmorning snack was 1oz of regular almonds, which I think is quickly becoming my favorite snack. For lunch I had a small portion of last night's leftover shrimp and pasta and a yogurt (thankfully not blueberry). The orange I put in my bag for a afternoon snack was brown and nasty inside, so I had a rice krispie treat instead, and it was not as satisfying as that orange would have been.

For dinner the hubby has a friend spending the night tonight so there were 3 of us for dinner and J's tummy is not yet 100% from the sickness he had over the weekend and yesterday. SO I made 2 chicken breasts, a pound of whole wheat penne (again, I really don't love whole wheat pasta), 2 heads of broccoli, and about 2 cups of mushrooms. Instead of oil I used ff chicken stock to coat the pasta and saute the veg. Plus I made some soup, black bean and tomato. The soup was very yummy, I will be taking the rest to work with me for lunch tomorrow and the boys have the left over pasta for work. I really like it when it works out that we have enough left overs to have them the next day for lunch. After all that I still had 10 points left over for the day so I indulged in some regular, full fat ice cream and a few almonds=yum!

I like Tuesdays after work cause it's one of the only times I get to talk to my sister. But I am looking forward to the weekend already. I am exceptionally tired today for some reason.

281.5

Today I was feeling a bit down. I think that the fact that I lost 6 pounds over the last week just hit me this morning and I started to feel guilty for not doing it sooner and skeptical thinking "well, did I really loose 6 pounds, that's not normal, there must be something wrong with me....." yeah, it just got worse from there. I hate when my brain starts playing tricks on me. Really need to snap myself back to reality.

This morning started off greaaaat when I woke up at 4:45 to hear my husband vomiting uncontrollably, nice. So he stayed home from work today.

I made a berry/pineapple smoothie for breakfast. 25 almonds for a mid morning snack. A ham and turkey sandwich and yogurt for lunch. An orange for an afternoon snack. When I got home the hubby was still sick, so I was making dinner for myself. So I indulged the opportunity and made shrimp (there was a bag of frozen shrimpys in the freezer, and I need to clean out everything before we move in feb, so this was sort of a dual-purpose treat) with whole wheat linguine with pesto. It was pretty good, but I've long said that I am not a fan of whole wheat pasta. I'm sorry, I wish I did, I just don't like the taste of it. (I don't really like whole wheat bread either, oatmeal bread is way yummier) But, I'm trying to get more whole grains in, so I'll grin and bear it, but I would rather spend an extra point and eat (regular) white flour/semolina pasta. Maybe it would be different if I tried to make some homemade, I don't know. Dessert, is sugarfree, fatfree pudding-yum. Still have 2 points left for the day...

So after seeing a bunch of blogs who posted monthly goals, I'm totally inspiried to make my own list.

November goals

1. Get down to 275 or lower. (6.5 pounds)

2. Get more active. (dust off the damn bike and finally do something!)

3. Try to eat more vegetables. (meet the good health guidelines 5-7/day)

4. Pack and purge, get ready to move in Feb.

5. Don't over indulge on Thanksgiving and trip home to Massachusetts.

So, that coffee that my hubs brought home from the gas station which turns out is 5.5 points for the whole thing, so I only drank about half, then dumped the rest before I was tempted to drink it all. Lunch was two slices of left over thin crust pizza. For dinner I made pork tenderloin with an apple cider glaze(reduced chicken stock and a packet of sugarfree apple cider mix, came out sooo good) carrots, mushrooms sauted with balsamic vinegar and chicken stock and oven baked potatoes. It came out very yummy. I think I even ate a little too much, but hey I'm learning more and more what my body actually wants, and it's not the junk that I was eating before. My stomach may hurt, but it's not like a fastfood binge hurt. Tomorrow, I will work on my portion control.

282

Squueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Yesterday I was only up half a pound yesterday morning after Friday night's dinner. Wooohooo!

Yesterday was a berry/pineapple smoothie for breakfsat, a few doritos to munch on after I came home from grocery shopping, then thin crust pizza (chicken, tomato, spinach) and chicken tenders from PapaJohns for dinner. Oh and some fatfree, sugarfree pudding for dessert. All point counted, used a few flex points, but that's ok cause it's working.

This morning I tried to make pumpkin pancakes for breakfast--big fail whale. Ended up making regular pancakes and some pumkin butter on top. The hubs picked me up a pumpkin spice coffee from the gas station...5.5 points. Yikes, track it, it's all good.

282.5

So, I was down another pound this morning. That makes 5 since Monday. I expect that that number may go up tomorrow morning considering what I ate for dinner tonight, but that’s to be expected. This is going to be a long process. I can’t expect to loose weight every day or even every week. That being said, I was happy with the choices I made all day, up until dinner.

Breakfast was a pineapple/strawberry smoothie, very yummy. Lunch was left over beef stew from last night’s dinner, but less meat and more veg and broth, yummy nevertheless; in fact I think it’s the best batch I’ve ever made. I had a snack of almonds (25) before lunch. When I got home the hubs wanted cheeburgercheeburger. I said ok because he’s working all weekend and I hate to say no to him. After agonizing over the menu I decided to go with a bunless burger, side salad and onion rings. I checked out the nutritional information and tried to do my best to over estimate everything. That turned out to be 30 points for dinner. (11.5 extra points for the day.) But I didn’t eat the dressing for the salad or the croutons or cheese. I was still within my points for the week, which reset tomorrow on my offical ww weigh in day. (I am thinking that I may change my weigh in day to friday or wednesday.)

I did get in all my water in today, so bravo me. Tomorrow is a brand new day and I will be successful. Lots to do tomorrow, so lots of activity walking in stores and cleaning, packing, etc.

283.5

Was down two more pounds this morning, but I hardly feel like celebrating.

I think I'm just going to go to bed.

Schmoey

17 years ago this month a very special soul came into my life. He was small and furry and 4 legs and big ears. For many years he lived at my dad's home in Chemlsford. When my dad moved at the end of my senior year of high school; Schmoey came to live with my mom, stepdad, sister and me at my mom's house in Pepperell. Schmoey has seen me through a great deal in my life: middle and high school, first jobs, first loves, my marriage and my many moves. In 2003 Schmoey came to live with me and my husband in Rhode Island and he lived with us for 3 months until we had to vacate our apartment with the board of health shut it down, so back to mom's he went (since we were homeless at the time). And there he was to stay. I would visit whenever I could, but somehow it never seemed enough anymore. Then in 2005 we moved to Virginia, 500 miles away from my precious kitty. Whenever I come home one of the very first things I do is call for Schmoey, pick him up and give him a big hug and kiss. Always feeling guilty whenever I would have to leave him. But I knew he was well loved and well cared for, and in a better place than what I could provide.

Lately, he has been talking to me every morning when I call and talk to my mom on my way to work. I talk to him over the phone, hear him purr and meow. He loves to meow/talk.

11 days ago my mom let Schmoey outside to play as he usually does and 30 minutes later he was no where to be found. I was absolutely devastated. My best little friend was missing and there was nothing I could do. For 5 days my parents spent many hours of the day and night searching for him, but he was no where to be found. Two hours ago my mom called me to tell me that someone had found him and brought him to the vet, but that he was very sick. She text me a picture of him shortly after arriving at the vet's office and told me just how sick he was. Schmoey had suffered a stroke, was blind and had a bad arrhythmia. He was not going to live another 2 hours. She let me talk to him. I told him how much I loved him, so , so , so much. He was the best friend, best cat, best everything he could be. I love him so much. My step dad kissed him for me. Then my mom and stepdad both held him when the vet gave him the shot to go to sleep. He's gone. My best little friend is truly gone. He's home now, for which I am immensely grateful, but he's gone nevertheless. I feel like my heart is breaking all over again. I almost feel a sense of peace that he's home now, but I still can't help but feel a great sadness that my friend is gone.

Cute, cuddly, and lovey. You loved life and everyone you met. You are a genuinely beautiful soul, knowing you has changed my life forever. I love you my sweet, precious kitty. You are the absolute greatest. No one will ever replace you in my heart, ever. I promise you I will be home soon.

285.5

Ok, can I just say how excited I was to step on the scale this morning and see that number!?! 2 pounds down, 160+ to go.

Very pleased with myself for staying on track all day. Breakfast was a pineapple/strawberry smoothie-yum- lunch was a turkey/ham sandwich on white (yum) bread with mustard and a lettuce leaf plus a ff yogurt. For dinner I made pesto and fresh tomato pizzas with low fat mozzarella. After all that I still had 14.5 points left for the day so I had some white toast with 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and 30 chocolate chips. As of right now, I still have 6 points left, but I'm not that hungry. I know I should eat all my points (33), but should I really force myself? I also got a bit of activity in today, working out back in the warehouse in the intense humidty. Not only did I feel gross and sweaty, but my hair was so curly and frizzy, a very attractive imagine indeed.

Had a great convo with my bff tonight and I booked the hubs plane ticket for thanksgiving. Good day.

287.5

That's my current weight.

I'm working hard to get back on track after a terrible (eating) summer. Also, get back to blogging, back to getting on track. Set reasonable, healthy goals. I can do this. Expect that it will take at least 3 years to get somewhere close to an ultimate goal. Be consistant.

New mantra:

There may be a 3 in front of my age and a 3 in front of my clothing size, but I will never see a 3 in front of my weight.

Day 3- I QUIT!

Ok, this diet sucks. I can't continue to do this. It is torture!!! Today started out ok, didn't eat until I got to work, after 9. I had a bowl of oatmeal with blueberries and a package of splenda with 2 egg whites. Skipped the mid am snack and for lunch I had again the same boring shit. a cup of lettuce, with 2oz of chicken, half a sweet potato and some oil & vinegar. By this point in the day I was seriously contemplating my options. I knew I was not going to be able to make it work for me. Let me reiterate.. IT SUCKS! Food is so bland cause you can't have any salt, practically no fruit and zero milk products. This is not going to work for me. I love food too much. So after lunch I went to the weight watchers website and did a bit of research. After talking to my girls on twitter who are all doing ww and supporting each other I decided to go for it and signed up for a free 7 day trial. In the meantime I ate an apple (such a rebel), made myself a cheese quesadilla, then Justin brought home BK and I ate a whopper with cheese and a large fry, plus a couple of bits of a mcd's triple cheeseburger. What a fat ass. I did track the points online of what I ate today and it was 49. Yup, 49 points..today. So tomorrow I will start all over again, a bit happier and with loads of support.

Day 2-50% failure

Ok, so yesterday was day number 2 and I started off good. I wanted to go for the left over pizza for breakfast, but I had oatmeal and blueberries instead. (hooray me) I added in some orange crystal light to sweeten it and it was pretty good. I did not eat the egg white I was supposed to at 8, but rather I ate 4 egg whites at 11:30 along with some green beans. Lunch was the same, 1 cup of lettuce with 2oz chicken and 1/2 sweet potato; only this time I added some oil and vinegar to the lettuce. (I just could not choke down dry gross lettuce again.) So up to this point sounds pretty good, right? Well this is where it stops. My husband came to pick me up and we went to get new cell phones and he brought the leftover pizza with him. I ate 3 slices of leftover deep dish pizza on the way to costco. Terrible, but I was hungry since I didn't eat the mid pm snack. We got our new phones and headed home (several hours later). So for dinner we stopped at McDonald's and I had 10 piece chicken nugget meal with large fries, buffalo sauce and ranch dressing. Oh and a m&m mcflurry. Stellar. Already hating this diet.

Preamble and Day 1

After weeks of researching, thinking, contemplating, agonizing, strategizing and planning we decided to start a new diet life style. I have done a bunch of research on the 6 Week Body Makeover plan, and watched the infomercial just about every day for 2 weeks. I went to our local library and got a book written by the same guy who does the 6 week program. I was so fascinated that I read the whole book in one day (a feat for anyone who knows me) and started planning from there. I made photo copies of pages of the book, and tried to plan as much as possible. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and was quiet pleased that I was able to buy all healthy food and stay on budget. So I spent the afternoon yesterday cooking, portioning and planning some more. I made grilled chicken (26 2oz portions) green beans for me and broccoli for the hubs, hard cooked eggs, ground turkey with a mushrooms, asparagus, onion mix, potatoes, sweet potatoes and rice.

This morning I woke up slightly excited to begin this new journey, although cautious and weary, knowing my track record. I weighed myself at 277.5 pounds just before getting in the shower. This is slightly better than the 282 I saw last week while making dinner one night. It was oatmeal and fresh blueberries before I left the house and 2 egg whites when I got to work. After a minor crisis was solved I had 2 more egg white and some green beans at 11:30. Lunch at 1 was 1/2 a sweet potato, some romaine lettuce and 2oz of chicken. This was ok, the lettuce was very bland and I don't really like it in general, but with no salad dressing it was borderline gross. I tried to dissolve some of that true lemon stuff in some water and that too was just lame. Tomorrow I think I will bring in a lemon or lime to try to help or perhaps some vinegar, something to help cut all that...blech... green I guess. Afternoon was ground turkey 2oz, and a cup of the mushroom/asparagus mix. So far at this point during the day I was doing ok. Then it came time to go home for dinner and this is where I fail. Dinner-time is the worst time of day for me. after driving home I was so convinced that I had to have pizza for dinner that I was able to convince and bribe my husband into letting me get it. I am a terrible person for this; continually ruled by my flesh. But as my husband pointed out to me, when I try to jump into these things head first and give it all or nothing, that is when I continually fail. It is better to do this in baby steps. So today I had a great morning and afternoon and not so great this evening. Tomorrow I will take another step and get a little better. Change one habit everyday and I'll be good in no time- ok not no time, but faster than doing nothing at all. I think that setting mini-goals for everyday is going to be the right way for me to accomplish this. My goal for tomorrow is to eat diner and after dinner snack as planned.